Others think you are pretty and skinny, but you dont. Whats the problem?

"Ever since last year i had this friend. She is my Best Friend! I love her to death! But I have this problem. I am alway stressing on how i think she is prettier than me. she is skinnier, obviously and guys just love her. She makes me think about suicide sometimes.

I am not FAT like I think I am. I actually just have about a pound to loose off my stomach. But she just makes me kill myself inside because of this fact. and I just cant get over it. She gets everything she wants and has THE best looks and has a great rich family. Its not fair. it will never be fair. I can help others but I just cant seem to help myself"

This was a journal entry of mine 4 years ago. I was 13. I was a size 5, I weighed 120 pounds and wore a size small in juniors shirts. Now does that sound "fat" to you? I majorly over reacted. As a matter of fact, I could have lost my best friend, who is still my best friend to this day. I love her with all my heart for staying supportive to me during my depression. I am now 130 pounds and a size 7. I am 17.